Which music has helped?

In my last blog about Music I said that I had listened to music over the past few months and it has given me comfort. Even more so in the past month in 2016. I have said before I have loved music since I was about eleven but I love it when new music comes out and really get into albums. Obviously I am a tad excited about the new Pet Shop Boys album out 1st April called “Super”.

Here are some of the songs and their videos that have helped over the past few months. I have mentioned some of the artists before, some you might have heard of and others you certainly will know.

Troye Sivan – Wild – Blue Neighbourhood

A great song about new relationships. Realising that what you had at the time was pretty crap hence ‘Blue Neighbourhood’ leaving the past behind and knowing that you are going to start on something new which for him seems pretty special.

Justin Bieber – I’ll show you – Purpose

A beautiful video shot in Iceland. It’s a confession. He knows he has fucked up in a lot of things in his life. Haven’t we all? But most of our stupid moments aren’t played out on the world’s stage as his are. Some will be publicity stunts others will be genuine moments of madness. He said he isn’t perfect. I have asked before sometimes if his management have a tighter rein on him and now he is an adult he will be rebelling. Everyone should be given grace and redemption. Makes me realise you can have everything that you want and still not be happy.

Scream – Michael Jackson (ft Janet Jackson) – HIStory : Past, Present and Future Book 1.

I hadn’t really listened to this song for along time (I cannot believe it was released over 20 years ago) but events in December 2015 brought it to mind and it fitted perfectly. You only need to watch the video to realise how stressed MJ was at the time. Partly his own fault and partly tabloid garbage. This song really helped. Helped me vent my anger.

Adele – Hello – 25

There is nothing better knowing that what pain you have gone through someone else has been through the same. I love this song as it takes me away from current things and makes me think of people from 15-30 years ago. I wonder what they are doing now? Would they like to meet? Do you ever think they think fondly of the time we spent together? These questions go through my head.

Loved me Back to Life –  Celine Dion – Loved Me Back to Life

I mentioned in 2013 that I had someone who did love me back to life. I love him to bits. It’s only when you know true love that you do find happiness. Finding a person who loves you unconditionally and you love them back is hard to find. There are so many who I thought were good friends and have turned out to be nob heads.

Stranger in Moscow – Michael Jackson – HIStory : Past, Present and Future Book 1

This is a bleak song about loneliness and despair. I am sure underneath all of Michael Jackson’s talent and craziness probably was a person who just wanted to be normal. When you are in the depths of depression and loss you don’t feel like anyone cares and you are isolated from the rest of the world. It’s an awful feeling.

Bond Meets Stacey – OST A View to a Kill 

What an odd piece of music you might think. It is take from the scene in A View to a Kill and I have listened to it over and over again. Beautiful. The reason I have included it is that mum LOVED the Bond films. When her dementia finally took over I heard this music come on my iTunes and I couldn’t stop crying at the time. It over-whelmed me. To know that she wouldn’t be able to watch and appreciate these films any more. It filled me with such sadness. It also helps me now to look over the years and decades I looked after mum putting on a DVD for her which she loved and appreciated.



Over the past few months I have bought a few albums and I have mentioned to you the ones that have bought. Others I haven’t so I am going to list them in the last six months hopefully in chronological order.

  • Shawn Mendes – Handwritten
  • Anne Boleyn’s Songbook
  • Justin Bieber – Purpose
  • Adele – 25
  • Troye Sivan – Blue Neighbourhood
  • Chris Brown – Royalty

These are the release dates and not necessarily when I bought them. Some were just bought with Christmas money. Converted into iTunes vouchers. Others I still buy the physical CD. There is still something about getting the physical CD that I just really enjoy. The smell of the paper that it’s printed on and being able read the lyrics if some of the artists have bothered to print them and the thanks they have given to the people who have helped them make the album

I think resurgence in the popularity of the vinyl in 2015 goes to prove that people like to have something to hold in their hand. It’s seems all very clinical and uninspiring to download an album. I have yet to read at of the digital booklets that comes with them and iTunes isn’t the best platform for incorporating this. Plus there is a warmth you get when listening to vinyl that you don’t when you listen to even the best MP3/AAC file.

The most recent of the albums to be realised is Chris Brown’s ‘Royalty’ didn’t even know he was releasing an album until I spotted it on iTunes and checked it was a rehash or one of those dreadful collaboration mix tapes.

The album itself bombed in the UK entering the first week at *23 and fairing better in the USA as they seem to a be a little more forgiving in his misdemeanours. The album itself has rather dubious and x-rated lyrics. I will discover the rest of the album over the next few days.

The shock discovery this year for me has to be the Bieber album. I had heard a couple of songs before buying the album and was pleased with what he had released. I had spoken about the album before and was happy to give it as decent review.

Music over the past few months has given me stability in times when there has been none. Comfort when I have needed it. I am just hoping that 2016 will be decent album year.



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Gari Wellingham

UK-based musical theatre geek previously living with a brain tumour!